Door

4 days left until the beginning of a new month. I have to say, things are getting better at college. I don't feel so lonely anymore. I realized today that people have always opened their door for me, but i've been so scared to open mine.

Why?

I don't know.

Scared? Maybe.
I'm scared that if i open my door, they'll enter and wreck everything inside and leave me all messed up.

Damn. Now i'm starting to feel lonely again. Fuck la -_-

Actually i'm not making any sense here. I know that if I let the door open, people enter and leave good memories. There are more good memories than bad ones. It has always been that way.

So why am I scared now?
Why won't I try to get closer to people here?

I'm so messed up now.

 So many questions. No answers.

Maybe i just need to give it more time.

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The longer i look at the word 'door', the weirder the word gets.

I need to catch up with my studies. Literature in English is a frickin HEAVY subject omg seriously. So many critical analysis to write, its piling up real fast. Kinda regret taking this subject, but I need an A to get into Queen Mary University ㅠ_ㅠ

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