Still can't decide

UK or US?

LONDON or NEW YORK?

BUSINESS or COMMUNICATION?


Is it really that complicated or am I making it complicated?


I can't tell...

Oh Dear

It's not really that big of a deal, but...

I didn't actually follow him on Twitter. Either I accidentally clicked the 'follow' button and didn't realise it, or Twitter went on some random following spree (because I found out that I was also following Premier League, like whaaat?)

So yeah, I mean, I don't remember going to his Twitter profile that week. Like, the last time I went to his profile was during my holiday in March/April, when I found my old blog and started searching all the people from my high school life on Twitter/FB. (I do things, don't ask.)
And he tweeted me saying 'Hi'. I honestly don't want to have a conversation, really. And I think it's pretty clear that he wasn't to keen on having one with me lol.
And thats why I didn't reply his last tweet.

So yeah. Awks.

Akdong Musician (악동뮤지션) - Melted (얼음들)

Akdong Musician debuted earlier in April, and just today they released their second MV, 'Melted'.
As if the song wasn't awesome enough, they levelled up the awesomeness by complimenting the song with a beautiful MV. The music video is totally different than other Kpop MVs I've seen before.
I don't quite know what the song is about, as the only thing I could understand was Soo Hyun's line "Why are they so cold?".  Then I saw the translations, and it's hauntingly beautiful.

Watching the MV, I couldn't tell where it's heading. I was so captivated by the quality of the MV and the storyline. It's sad, because we all know how true it is. We all know how cold the world can be sometimes. The boy in the MV starts out as a bright boy who seemed so naive, so trusting. As the MV progresses, a series of events starts to change him. When the dog barked at him, he screamed back at the dog, which shows that he, himself, has turned cold. But at the end, an act of kindness by a man (the owner of the dog) managed to store back the warmth in the boy.

I was truly touched by the MV. I loved it. I love Akdong Musician. They are really talented. Can you believe it, Chan Hyuk wrote the songs in the album? He is so much younger than me! Well... he is only 2 years younger than me.. but still! And Soo Hyun's voice is so... how do I describe it? It's velvety. Soft, rich and warm. The siblings are truly talented, and I'm glad they're under YG. I'm also glad that YG let them do things their way. I love YG, seriously. Huge fan of their artistes. But obviously, AkMu's style is just so different than YG's style. But yeah, I'm happy with the outcome. I can tell that others are happy too :)

Their debut album is amazing! I have to say, my favourite song is Don't Hate Me (안녕) and Hair Part (가르마). Then comes Melted and 200%.


_______________________________________________________________________

Translation:

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face turns black
The white sky that had clouds and rain and the wind turns gray
I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face
I look at the past warmth that is deeply buried (too late get it out)
I wish the cold in the world of adults would be gone too
I wish the frozen love will melt away now

I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

A Coward

I don't know what to do after I graduate A-Levels this June.
I have no idea where I wanna go, what I want to do.
I'm scared. What if I choose the wrong path? I'll be spending 4 years and a ton of money on education and living+travelling expenses.
I'll be spending the rest of my life, stuck with a job that I don't even like.

Its funny how I'm actually scared of the future, rather than doing something about it. Scared of something that has yet to happen. Shame on you, Shaz~ Stop being a coward!



Sigh.

OK. I have about a month left till my first paper for finals (law paper). Still got time to cover those chapters. Still can make it. I mean, it's only 3 subjects.

CAN SOMEONE HELP ME GET STARTED???

No, no one can help me if I don't help myself.

BUT I NEED A PUSH!!

No, you can do that on your own for God's sake!

WHAT IS THIS INTERNAL CONFLICT THINGY??  D:

Ok ok. Tomorrow is Monday, first class after two weeks break. I'm obviously gonna get it from my lecturers because of my below average trials result.

It's ok Shaz.




It's okay....



Note to self: Stop being scared of what's coming and focus on your current situation. Dammit Shaz get yourself together! You're 20 already!